(Verse 1)
I'm trying to paint a picture for you but I just can't illustrate,
Times ticking quickly, I feel the bomb's 'bout to detonate,
Inception has reversed itself onto me and my destiny,
I'll ignite my lyrical mind and redefine ecstasy,
I'm in love with this music shit but is it really worth it,
I've exposed my life onto audio files, yeah that took some courage,
I'm just looking for some purpose, inhale the swisher and chug a glass of bourbon,
On the rocks, I'm just starting, bet you'll never see me stop,
It's the mystery that gives my life worth,
Eyes open but my vision's become nothing but a blur,
Do you concur that the meaning of art has faded away,
Let the bullets spray, listen to what the father has to say,
You're just preaching to the choir, money and fame ain't exactly what I desire,
But damn would it be one hell of a fucking change,
Bitches just reaching for my dick while I'm performing on stage,
Countless bars written on a single page,
I think I've crash landed, I'm barely standing, on a new planet,
That forced me to become this manic-depressive kid with the raw talent,
If you find me at church, I'm not praying,
I'm just screaming "God Dammit!"
(Hook x2)
I don't regret the choices I made,
I know I put the names of many people in vein,
I aim to be somebody you remember,
But how can I do that if my heart is colder than a cloudy night in Mid-December
(Verse 2)
Somebody take my pain away, nah fuck that,
This is exactly what got my mind focused on making tracks,
When the psychiatrist told me to just relax,
I inhaled the herb, but I don't want to go back to that,
It's not new to me to be the one outside,
Peering into societies gates through the space between the bars,
I don't wish to enter, I prefer the stars,
Watch suns die, planets align, where time seems to fly faster than the speed of light,
I wonder how we even got here,
Repaint the picture because the image is not clear,
I'll take these wounds and scars as souvenirs,
Fall back in the abyss and watch my sanity begin to disappear,
Or is it too late, I know it is for me,
Tattoo "OPEN" across my face because my mind has too much vacancy,
I know it's plain to see but I want all my peers to remember me now,
Not somebody that I used to be,
Made a wrong decision now my life begins to unfold,
I sold my soul not to the devil but something more cold,
When my mind snapped I didn't lose it I pursued it,
Now look me in the eyes and lie by saying that you always knew it
(Hook x2)
I don't regret the choices I made,
I know I put the names of many people in vein,
I aim to be somebody you remember,
But how can I do that if my heart is colder than a cloudy night in Mid-December
Hip-Hop Artist/Singer, Name: Cesar Solorio, Born: January 2, 1995, Genre: Hip-Hop, Hometown: Anaheim, California, Current Living: Riverside, California
Notebook.'s "Skylines | Nightvibes" EP is a more neo-soul/hip-hop album that you can vibe out to, take a tab, smoke a drag, or puff the herb too. Cesar Solorio